Gotta get something off my mind...

So I let someone really bother me today.

  Here's the story...I sold someone some of the little man's clothing on Craigslist and they e-mailed me today, complaining that they smelt and were out of style.  And they said that I MISLEAD them.  Which I totally didn't.  But here's the thing...I'm so letting it get to me, even though I know I am not wrong. 

I guess what got me is the smelling thing.  Our clothes do not smell.  Maybe since she has a different house then us, or just because she is a stuck up snobby bitch.  I mean, she didn't even look at them before she bought them. UGH.

I have been letting people get to me wayyy too much. 

 This makes me think of my Grandma.  She was so strong and would just look past it.  Why can't I be more like her?  I miss her so much. I just wish she could be here to see our little boy.  She would have fell in love.  But like I said, a situation like this would have never gotten to her. 

Maybe this is a test from God.  I am not all that religious, but I do believe.  But if it is, He sure has been giving me a lot lately.  I do need to become a stronger woman.  I have let people walk all over me.  This has to stop.  Maybe this is Gods way of telling me that I need to stop it.  I think it is.  And you know what, that is now on my list of goals for myself.  To not let things bother me.  

Life is too short.  

Plain and Simple.  

This. This is what keeps me going.  Everyday.

It's the little things...

Today is the little man's birthday. He is 2! years old. He amazes me everyday with that smile, laugh, and crazy antics.

When I was younger, I never thought that I would be the person to have a kid while still in college. I kinda wanted the whole college experience. I must admit, I wasn't too thrilled with the thought of having a baby at 20. But, he has made my life so much greater.

Having a baby made me and Brian 10x closer. We have a bond that can never be broken. It also brought me so much closer to my mom. She has always been my best friend, but experiencing this with her was amazing. So enjoy some pictures of my beautiful baby boy. He's gonna be a heartbreaker.

A-Z!

Let's try something fun today!
Here's a little bit more about me!
A: Age: 22...although sometimes I feel like I'm about 13. B. Bed size: Queen. But sometimes, I really wish we had room for a king. Nicolas is a bed HOG! C. Chore that you hate: Dusting...allergies...do I need to say more? When I dust, it gets my allergies roaring. But it's a lose lose situation. The act up if I don't dust. D. Dogs: 2 Chihuahuas. They are mom and daughter. Gypsy, the mom, was my grandma's dog. Kinda like a connection to her in heaven. E. Essential start to your day: A hug and a kiss from my 2 guys. F. Favorite color: Don't really have one. But I do love white. It's just so clean. :) G. Gold or Silver: Silver. I hate gold. H. Height: 5'4" My son is gonna use me as an arm rest. haha. He's already up to my waist. I. Instruments you play: I took a piano class in high school. I still remember bits and peices, but couldn't play like a used to. J. Job title: Mommy! and Honey. :) K. Kids: Have one, but not sure about anymore. Maybe when we are more financially stable. L. Live: Virginia M. Mother’s name: Sara N. Nicknames: Jenn. My name is Jennifer, but I like Jenn better. It's easier. My mom has always called me boo. O. Overnight hospital stays: When I had my son, and I had my gallbladder out at 8 mos. pregnant. Talk about fun. Not. P. Pet peeves: Manners. I hate when people don't say Please, or Thank you. This is something I will always instill to my son. Q. Quote from a movie: "The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. That's what I hope to give you forever." Melt my heart. R. Right or left handed: Right handed. Brian is left handed, and Nicolas is using both. S. Siblings: Just a half-brother that I have never met. U. Underwear: Seriously? V. Vegetable you hate: Broccli. I hate the texture. W. What makes you run late: Procrastination. Then I stress and do it right before I go. X. X-Rays you’ve had: My wrists. I have sprained both wrists 8x all together when I was younger. Y. Yummy food that you make: I make some killer oreo balls. Z. Zoo animal: Monkeys or elephants. Of course I have a monkey living right in my house! Yet again, I can't upload pictures. Ugh...Seriously?

New quest to frugality...

So, we have had a sudden change in our life, which I can't go into detail about at this point, but we are having to start really watching our money. I have always been trying new ways to save some money, but now, it is more important than ever. So my first thing that I am going to try is homemade baby wipes. We're almost out, so this is going to be tried tonight. :) At the moment, we are paying $5 for baby wipes, and you get 184 I think. If I figured it out right, we will definitly be saving money. I am not sure if I am going to use paper towels, or wash clothes. We have a lot of baby wash clothes, so I am thinking that I will go that route. I just don't know how I will deal with the washing of the pooy ones. I may just make up two batches, one of paper towels for the poo, and one of wash clothes, for just messiness and before bed wipedowns, for non bath nights. So that is my first experiment, so to say. We are getting ready to potty train, actively, which is has already went 2x in the potty, we just have to work on it more. :) So off I go, to find some other money saving tips, and if you have any at all, please, feel free! :)

Bittersweet feelings...

So fall is fast approching, meaning another season has flown by without me noticing it. Another season that I spent with my little man, and one less to spend with him later. Nicolas is turning 2! Next week he will be another year older. And this is what is bittersweet. I feel like the last 2 years have flown by. I have been going to school and I will be finishing up this semester, and will have to go to work. I am not complaining, but I do dread leaving Nicolas during the day. He is so attached to me, obviously since it is just me and him when dad's at work. (Good news about that as well!) He hates when I even leave the room, and really shows it. But with him going to start preschool next year, it is necessary for him to learn that I cannot always be with him. It just has to be that way. We aren't doing a party for his birthday. Quite frankly, money is just too tight for us to do that. The extra money we do have, I would like to spend on birthday presents, or a big birthday present, instead of feeding other people, who really don't care to be there anyway. So for his birthday, we are having a dinner here, his favorite, and a cake for us, and the weekend following, there is a HUGE festival where everyone gets together and goes downtown and does crafts, etc. He has LOVED everyone of these that we have been too, so we are going to have a family day out of it for him. Plus we are taking him to a football game, so that in it's own is the sh*t to him. :) The boyfriend got a promotion at work, meaning garunteed hours, and more pay. So this was great news. Considering the week that we have had, it was a huge ray of sunshine. We never get into fights, but when we do, it's usually huge. And one of those fights happened the other night. We are okay now, after talking it out, but it still made the week a not very good one. Weightloss Update: I haven't been able to hit the gym as much as I would like, but I am still making progress. I have lost another pound, and I feel pretty good. As said before, I wasn't worried about loosing so much weight, as I am about just feeling better. And I already am. :) I have so much on my to do list, that I can't even focus on one thing at a time. I have grad apps to fill out, which had to be postponed because the site was down, I have to update my resume, fill out applications, because if I can get a job, I'm going for it. So anyways, guess I should finish this off and head off to do that. :) xoxo; Jenn